“You know, the voice in your head? It's not just a voice, it's a movie you feel, a nightmare, you act out in reality. It's time to wake up.
“It may seem like it worries, hates, judges, loves, wonders, complains, resists, rushes, disrespects, respects.”
“But it doesn't do any of that any more than a record or a movie playing does any of that.”
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“Sometimes it looks like intelligence and other times it looks like stupidity, but it's neither…”
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“It seems to control things, people and events, but is itself out of control often. What is it? The voice in your head is…”
“Here's my story about the battle with the voice in the head. A lot of people can relate to …a nagging, negative voice in the head.
It was excruciating, actually. At some point I remember just collapsing in the kitchen, bawling, crying. And just moments earlier, I was just chopping vegetables, everything was fine.”
“I kind of wondered, wow, what was that? How can I be fine one minute and then in this intense suffering the next? And it went on for weeks. I recognized that this voice was just going on and on and I didn't know what to do about it. Even worse, knowing that this is going on, not being able to stop it, and wanting so much to.”
“And then it was so bad that for three days I was in this excruciating pain. And I remember just laying on the floor again, and the thought came to me, I think. I think I'm dead.”
“I had a few experiences like that before I actually discovered the love and joy within that we all have.”
“I was going from a really bad feeling into this amazing love, joy, peace. And very dramatically, very fast, you couldn't miss it, you know?”
“And I didn't understand how or why that was going on until I was in this intense suffering for weeks because I was denied the love I thought I had to have.”
“I thought my love came from somebody else outside of me, and that was jerked out from underneath me. And I was left alone, me and my thoughts.”
“One of the things I tried to do was this thing called positive thinking, right?”
“Where you're feeling bad, but you're trying to force a good thought on, you know? And it was brutal. It was excruciating because it didn't work. And I'd be trying to just tell myself good things, you know?”
“Meanwhile, I'd be going, but it's not true. It's not real. What are you crazy? Then I would say things like, well, but apparently everybody else does that, right? That's the thing to do. Positive thinking, right? What's wrong with me? How come I can't do this?!”
“The more I tried to force a good thought on a bad feeling, the worse I felt.”
“In the middle of that, I just couldn't take anymore. I had the thought of suicide.”
“But because my dad had died by suicide, and I promised him it would not be for nothing, the immediate answer was, no. That can't happen. But I can't take it anymore. I can't take this pain anymore.”
Suddenly… “I was feeling this love, this joy, this peace.”
“Ah, ‘that can't be' the mind said. That can't be. Because, you know, you've been abandoned, you've been, you know, dropped, you've been dumped.”
“But, but wait a second. This felt good. No matter what mind said, this felt good.”
“In that old recording, I was describing how I had fallen in love with love itself. The rest is history.”
P. S ~ Have you ever felt disconnected from someone you love? What to do about it is coming up next…”